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This little world of mine…

What a miraculous world where our future is never defined, what a shining bright dream to which we turned our eyes blind.

A future taken for granted to be willed into being, no chaos could we have imagined what we’d be seeing…

is this what our ancestors faced during the Waring times? fear and despair coiling around them, where did they find the courage to stand,

And in the growing ashes the flaws of history became apparent we question our ways and champion what is fair, but cracks continue to spread as the facade begins to tear

no glorious state no dignified society, to the pits we all crawl into the abyss we all begin to fall

together they stood when faced with adversary, yet WE stand divided, isolated and alone, our hearts are connected in our solitude and desire, destiny is upon us if only together we could aspire

A tribute to the world that was to be, a promise to the world that you’ll all share with me.

My Happily Never After

Im scared…
Im scared of you of what you think
Of what you say, what you want
What you don’t…

I wont ever tell you first i wont even tell you second
Im a coward i know but that’s how Ive survived

You will never know and that’s okay
It will hound my mind but eventually one day
Ill forget, you’ll forget me
And that’s just how it will be

Your answer terrifies me
Its my greatest fear
I feel so paper thin like im ready to tear
I know the answer already i can see it in my heart
Im not stupid i knew it from the start
Why do i always want what i know i cant have?

Im not the most interesting
or have the perfect look
I might not be someones first choice
But im a great choice
That’s what i need to believe
That’s what i wish i could see
But that’s something i know i just cant be…

Im not fearless im not even brave
Ill take my secrets and pain to the grave
I wish i had the courage to try

Life is a puzzle i just cant solve
But in this moment around you my whole world will revolve
You’ll be the one ill wish i could speak too
Every time your in sight
But against all my might you’ll always be…
My golden apple and eternal plight

A Dream Unwritten

Life is like a dream so confusing, so consuming , a nightmare full of blissful moments

Why am i confused?
Lost in this dream
Lost in a nightmare of bliss and despair
Fear is my savior
The darkness withing my heart
Every time i wake
My heart my soul 
Is so easy to break
Please tread carefully….

Is this our charade?
Our waltz 
Our masquerade
Please let it last…

I gave you three wishes
But i need one of my own
Surrounded by love
Why do i feel so alone

I know this is silly 
I know im a fool
But i don’t understand why you think im so cool….

Perfections a virtue
All i have are sins
All that’s left of me
Is what i pretend to be

I promised to be myself
To show you the real me
But how can i be calm
When i don’t know what you’ll see
Dressed up for so long
As who im supposed to be

I need this for myself
So im going to take a chance
Ill wait here at our ball
And hope you come to dance