Tag: feeling

Absence

Here i am again, feels like im falling back down the rabbits hole
Here i am again, feels like ive shattered my mind, body and soul

How do i shout it out so that everyone will hear what i have to say
Ive tried…. im still trying, im just so weary ive lost my way

Stuck on a mountain no way to get down
Ill stay here forever let fate itself unwound

Im ashamed about falling, dont look at me im not here…
The truth of it all the weakness, is too much for me to bare
I could never accept it a life so frail, Through these letters, the only way i can tell my tale..

Im waiting on a hero, a fairytale come true
A hand in the darkness telling me “ill carry you”
I want to reach out and take it, the strength to manage through it all…

But i dont need you to catch me because ill never stop falling
Heavens watch me as i continue my decent..

..my fall.

My Happily Never After

Im scared…
Im scared of you of what you think
Of what you say, what you want
What you don’t…

I wont ever tell you first i wont even tell you second
Im a coward i know but that’s how Ive survived

You will never know and that’s okay
It will hound my mind but eventually one day
Ill forget, you’ll forget me
And that’s just how it will be

Your answer terrifies me
Its my greatest fear
I feel so paper thin like im ready to tear
I know the answer already i can see it in my heart
Im not stupid i knew it from the start
Why do i always want what i know i cant have?

Im not the most interesting
or have the perfect look
I might not be someones first choice
But im a great choice
That’s what i need to believe
That’s what i wish i could see
But that’s something i know i just cant be…

Im not fearless im not even brave
Ill take my secrets and pain to the grave
I wish i had the courage to try

Life is a puzzle i just cant solve
But in this moment around you my whole world will revolve
You’ll be the one ill wish i could speak too
Every time your in sight
But against all my might you’ll always be…
My golden apple and eternal plight