A Chorus Yet To Sing

Sometimes…
I want so much to give up

I fall and get up so many times
Is it really that bad if i don’t stand again
Cant i just sit here and hide my tears in the rain?
I don’t want to try anymore i cant stand the pain

It washes over me like the rising sun
It hurts so much it shreds my very being
Piece by piece my death foreseeing

I wish i could quell the hope within my box
Discard my heart and cover it in locks
Bury it deep leave no trace behind
Harden my soul and make my eyes blind

I wish it would all go and just leave me alone
Just let me fade away die and rot to the bone

I have no fear of what hell has in store
Id choose eternal damnation then suffer this anymore

Nobodys perfect

I hate it all go burn in the fires
a cesspit of shadow of devils and liars

Friends… haha what friends?
its easy to say things when i need them not
but when im down and depressed you dont say alot
its all pretend you use me to make you feel better
but return the favour? no i got to write a letter

but here im just venting i dont even care
whether your gone or whether your here

What hurts from you is you dont even try
this isnt about you but i hate that you lie

not about yourself but about how much i mean
im drowning in sorrow and your hands left unseen

I can be strong for others why cant i be strong for myself
I thought it was real but thats all i get?… what a shame..
Its over and over that i play this cruel game

I drown in my words like i don’t know how to swim
Hijacked by emotion i have no time to think
I just let it pour out smothered by it i sink

a shrug of your shoulder and turn of your head
haha way to save me friend im already dead

If im a monster then what are you

You who have judged me in the most one sided way

You who have called me a monster

You have no idea that i think of it everyday

No confidence my future controlled…

You who masquerades as the knight in shining armor

You who keeps his “friends” close

You who would turn at the drop of a hat

Not caring about any damage you cost…

You who have decided that evil is about

And rallied your holy crusade

But really its Salem the witch hunters den

Persecution without trial amidst…

Introduction to My New Wonderland ++

I never took it seriously but now i think i will
You made an impact on me in the last few days…
I don’t know what it is but im determined to see it thru
Did i see a glimpse behind the mask? a waver that was true?
It makes no difference my mask wavered too.

Poetry’s not your language..
So ill learn what you speak
One day i reach the sky sit there and just watch the havoc you’ll wreak
This room has nothing but walls but i see the world through a thousand windows

The bread crumbs you can hide but the path you cannot
Ill find it one day and from there i wont stop
A rabbit maybe faster but the turtle wins the race
This may not be entirely true but ill bring carrots just in case

I don’t know about talent, but i have a wicked stubborn mode
Ill unravel the intricacies the knowledge of this code

Piece by piece the puzzle will appear, the grand design will show
And from that moment i will know
What im looking for…
What i want from this…
There’s no such thing as broken just something transformed
Something changed for the better? that we’ll see…
But lets dance you an i
Just you an me

Friends are fleeting
Rivals are eternal
Student and teacher timeless

Take this as you wish confine it to your mind
Your memories your dreams let this information unwind

This is not the end you know, its all just begun
Mark this date as the day that i strive to meet the sun

A Dream Unwritten

Life is like a dream so confusing, so consuming , a nightmare full of blissful moments

Why am i confused?
Lost in this dream
Lost in a nightmare of bliss and despair
Fear is my savior
The darkness withing my heart
Every time i wake
My heart my soul
Is so easy to break
Please tread carefully….

Is this our charade?
Our waltz
Our masquerade
Please let it last…

I gave you three wishes
But i need one of my own
Surrounded by love
Why do i feel so alone

I know this is silly
I know im a fool
But i don’t understand why you think im so cool….

Perfections a virtue
All i have are sins
All that’s left of me
Is what i pretend to be

I promised to be myself
To show you the real me
But how can i be calm
When i don’t know what you’ll see
Dressed up for so long
As who im supposed to be

I need this for myself
So im going to take a chance
Ill wait here at our ball
And hope you come to dance