Nobodys perfect

I hate it all go burn in the fires
a cesspit of shadow of devils and liars

Friends… haha what friends?
its easy to say things when i need them not
but when im down and depressed you dont say alot
its all pretend you use me to make you feel better
but return the favour? no i got to write a letter

but here im just venting i dont even care
whether your gone or whether your here

What hurts from you is you dont even try
this isnt about you but i hate that you lie

not about yourself but about how much i mean
im drowning in sorrow and your hands left unseen

I can be strong for others why cant i be strong for myself
I thought it was real but thats all i get?… what a shame..
Its over and over that i play this cruel game

I drown in my words like i don’t know how to swim
Hijacked by emotion i have no time to think
I just let it pour out smothered by it i sink

a shrug of your shoulder and turn of your head
haha way to save me friend im already dead

Absence

Here i am again, feels like im falling back down the rabbits hole
Here i am again, feels like ive shattered my mind, body and soul

How do i shout it out so that everyone will hear what i have to say
Ive tried…. im still trying, im just so weary ive lost my way

Stuck on a mountain no way to get down
Ill stay here forever let fate itself unwound

Im ashamed about falling, dont look at me im not here…
The truth of it all the weakness, is too much for me to bare
I could never accept it a life so frail, Through these letters, the only way i can tell my tale..

Im waiting on a hero, a fairytale come true
A hand in the darkness telling me “ill carry you”
I want to reach out and take it, the strength to manage through it all…

But i dont need you to catch me because ill never stop falling
Heavens watch me as i continue my decent..

..my fall.