Nobodys perfect

I hate it all go burn in the fires
a cesspit of shadow of devils and liars

Friends… haha what friends?
its easy to say things when i need them not
but when im down and depressed you dont say alot
its all pretend you use me to make you feel better
but return the favour? no i got to write a letter

but here im just venting i dont even care
whether your gone or whether your here

What hurts from you is you dont even try
this isnt about you but i hate that you lie

not about yourself but about how much i mean
im drowning in sorrow and your hands left unseen

I can be strong for others why cant i be strong for myself
I thought it was real but thats all i get?… what a shame..
Its over and over that i play this cruel game

I drown in my words like i don’t know how to swim
Hijacked by emotion i have no time to think
I just let it pour out smothered by it i sink

a shrug of your shoulder and turn of your head
haha way to save me friend im already dead

A Dream Unwritten

Life is like a dream so confusing, so consuming , a nightmare full of blissful moments

Why am i confused?
Lost in this dream
Lost in a nightmare of bliss and despair
Fear is my savior
The darkness withing my heart
Every time i wake
My heart my soul 
Is so easy to break
Please tread carefully….

Is this our charade?
Our waltz 
Our masquerade
Please let it last…

I gave you three wishes
But i need one of my own
Surrounded by love
Why do i feel so alone

I know this is silly 
I know im a fool
But i don’t understand why you think im so cool….

Perfections a virtue
All i have are sins
All that’s left of me
Is what i pretend to be

I promised to be myself
To show you the real me
But how can i be calm
When i don’t know what you’ll see
Dressed up for so long
As who im supposed to be

I need this for myself
So im going to take a chance
Ill wait here at our ball
And hope you come to dance